So many things have happened recently.
First thing I’d like to address is MJ’s death. A Celebrity death hasn’t hit me that hard since Heath ledger died. I feel like I lost something really important and I’ve always wanted to meet him and now I’ll never get the chance. It is REALLY pathetic to see how he is getting the respect he always deserved AFTER he died. I always refused to believe the accusations of him being a pedo, and who ever thinks he was is an idiot. People will hurt ANYONE if it involves cold hard cash. I hope that bitch burns in hell, she ruined that man’s life with her lies.

And Billy Mays died too. Wtf. But every year, celebrities die in a pair of 3. Always. I’m sad that he has died too, but it wasn’t nearly as devastating as learning that Michael died. Maybe his death was over shadowed because MJ died a few days before him. UGH both right before and right after my 19th birthday.

Now for the good news. Sean Jaster proposed to me on my birthday, totally unexpectedly. He took me to my favorite restaurant for lunch, then took me for a walk in the nature preserve. Before we left, he took me to this large hole in the ground with stones surrounding the base of it. Sean pulled me to his chest and held me really close which was a little weird for him to do out of nowhere, but I thought he was being uber nice because, it was my birthday. He explained to me that this was the foundation of a house that was year, like 100 years ago. They he started to tell me how he wanted his marriage to be like that foundation, to last forever even if the house, he and his wife, were gone. That his grandchildren would know how much they loved each other and he and his wife would be the rock on which their future family would be built. Sean brought me chin up so he could see my face, then said told me how much he loved me and he had a question to ask me. Shortly there-after, he dropped down to one knee and pulled out a little blue box and opened it.
“Will you marry me?”

My emotions proceeded to go WTFFFWEGFERWGERDGRDGFRDTB And I started to cry >_>. But I managed to squeak out a “Yes” before he slide the ring on my finger and lunged to pick me up and swing me around. Oh he’ll deny it but he cried too, and we just stood there holding each other, telling one another how much we love the other for a few minuets. My legs felt like pudding I was so emotional.

We walked back to the car, in a loony love daze and proceeded to go back to my house where he carried me up to my bedroom. We laid in my bed for like 2 hours, just enjoying each other’s company.
So as of June 27th, I am the future Mrs. Sean Jaster. No date set, since we will be damn sure to wait until after we graduate. Sean just wanted me to know how serious he was about being with me and how much he loved me.

The ring is white gold, with an antique design, with a heart in the middle and within the heart is a white diamond slightly raised. It’s really beautiful. We are going back to the JB Robinsons sometime next month so they can “check up” on the ring. (I guess to make sure the diamond isn’t loose or something since it was a custom design.) It’s so beautiful, I’m really thankful. I’ll upload a picture or 2 of it when I get my new camera set up.
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I’m waiting for July to roll around. I have a shoot that will pay for our vacation to Arizona and then some. Plus it would be Sean’s first time ever doing a real photoshoot and getting paid for it, so I’m excited to see if he has it in him to do more with male modeling. He has the body, the face, and the will to do it but lacks the 2 inches he needs to do anything serious. Oh well, we’ll see how his first time goes. :]

Cosplay~~~~~~

We will be holding off on it for the summer because of how busy we are with plans, and work, and vacation, but for Reactor we are hosting a panel and I plan to cosplay Reika Kuze from Fatal frame 3. I have the hair already, and we know enough about latex that I’ll have bewbie covers made, since Reika is shirtless but has no nipps D: Why, I dunno. I was also thinking of cosplaying older Alma, but obviously not to a con. (shes naked) and We’ll go to a construction site, or find a good photoshoot location and take some well set up pictures, my hair in front of mah bewbs and I’ll be at an angle that won’t allow crotch shots. XD Maybe I’ll have my niece be “little red dress” Alma, I’m not sure yet.
The boys are putting together A “Smog” from silent Hill 5 (PAIN IN THE EFFING ASS) I said oh hell no, You guys can put it together. (I know nothing about LED lights and that crap that they are doing) but I’m more than sure I’ll end up getting stuck with painting the costume because I’m pretty good with latex paints and they are not so much… lol

I think our group officially only does scary cosplays… they are the most fun to do I guess. XD

Muwah <3